But the octopus of my nightmares continued to haunt me night § day. Then I suddenly realized that this octopus wasn’t necessarily evil. It only created These nightmares to be finally seen and to be valued. So I named the octopus Kai and I took him to my safe inner place in the ocean. It is a safe inner place for Renate-the adult woman.

From this place we saved the inner children that had suffered the abuse and we created a safe inner children place for them (green with blue horse)

To protect myself and my inner children (Natis) I created my dragon: Fulna. Fulna is a so-called power-animal, that Supports me if I find myself in difficult situations in my present every-day-life. Here Fulna is still hurt. That however, is going to change very soon…

I wrote a healing fairy tale about Fulna. The dragongirl that came into the world to remind humans of their dreams. Fulna literally outgrows herself and in order not to be discovered she has to escape from the world of humans.

Here comes the English Fulna Video

She learns how to fly (see Video Fulna Renate Renate on You Tube) and flies to the Aenderland (Land of Change).

On her way to the Aenderland Fulna saves the abused deergirl Anuschka. In the Aenderland (English: Changing Land) Anuschka is prone to find her way to her true self. On the way they make friends with an octopus, a magician and a monkey-bird.

After having successfully survived some adventures together the friends eventually come to land on the Moon. Here, Terrax, an ex-Earthman, teaches the deer Anuschka how to shield herself against agression from outside.

It is evident, that the deergirl is soon to face the monster, that sucks the happiness out of all creatures…

 Back in the Aenderland it comes to the first battle with the Monsters. They appear to be invincible. But only almost: Because out of an earth tunnel comes the thorndevil and helps Anuschka and her friends.

Ssht… you can read how the Story goes on at the end of this year.

“Renate or the journey of the centre of the Self” contains the second part of Fulna (as an adult dragonlady). This healing fairy tale made it possible for me to experience the “creation” of my autobiography as true process of healing.

The healing fairy tale Fulna has been published in English, French and Spanish. It is ideal for children from 6 years onwards to gain more self-confidence and overcome fear.

You can order it here on the Website under healing fairy tale or at Amazon.co.uk for ~8 §.

Have fun with the dragonlady 🙂

Also, it is the aim of the healing fairy tale FULNA to enhance self-confidence. The autobiographic healing novel “Renate -or the journey to the centre of the Self” is not only a summary of my life but also meant as an encouragement to others to follow their paths-even if this thorny path is harder to follow than an already built highway :). Essential on my way to inner peace is a reconciliation between the inner parts. In the Picture you can see the deer girl Anuschka with Renate. The deer girl symbolizes my inner child Nati, which has been hurt too much in the past.

It has helped me to draw and therefore visualize that I am not alone in my everyday life. True, I have my inner fantasy world and my inner parts that are being represented by the thorndevil in the middle. Also it is important for me to see that next to therapists, doctors and and my guinea-pigs of course-, I can go to  friends, clubs and a monastery where I feel connected.