Like the fawn Anuschka I did my “demarcation exercises” in order to deal with conflicts: What was my part in the conflict and what were the general problems of the others? I learned that by focussing on my energy spots people would make way for me instead of bumping into me as usual.
The more I was in touch with my inner parts, the more I could withdraw from unhealthy relationships. When I visted my family I stayed only for a few hours, so I could regain my inner balance afterwards. By saying goodbye to “sick” relationships I could find more and more fulfillment in my life together with satisfaction. My healing fairy tales, my friends, my pets and my stays in the bouddhist monastery helped me to “stay on my path”.
And now I want to start reading from my healing fairy tale “The last Dance”. In the picture you can see the fawn Anuschka with her brother Ambiguton in harmony.
After this misleading harmony the sexual abuse takes place. There I did not only lose the trust in my family but also the trust in myself.
Anuschka the fawn symbolizes the hurt inner aspect in me that has remained in shock-induced paralysis since having suffered sexual violence. Now-two decades later I could regain inner peace when Anuschka was saved by Fulna. After this salvation even my nightmares decreased.
Anuschka is saved by Fulna and she brings her into the desert of the lost souls. Here lie all the souls that have been separated from their owners by a terrible incident. Anuschka’s soul is also here in the desert.
In the “Aenderland” (land of change) Anuschka Fulna and Kai experience a lot of adventures. When she finally Returns to her family she realizes that she doesn’t want to keep up the old role Patterns. When looking into a puddle she understands that she has lost her white “Bambini-spots” and has turned into an adult. She then decides to leave her family in order to live a life of her own in freedom.
