The journey to the centre of the self

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After a rather unhappy youth and ten years of teaching, Renate finds herself in a psychosomatic clinic to overcome her burnout. But what seems to be the result of being burnt out turns out to be a network of different traumatic experiences.

Together with her therapists Renate searches for the roots of her psychological troubles to overcome her burnout. Thereby she is drawn into her life story she is writing. The frozen atmospheres and tragic moments seem to come to life again and leave Renate in shock and horror. The clinic director therefore advises Renate to invent a healing fairy tale to overcome her burnout and regain her strength. Here a fawn, an octopus and a dragon begin their dangerous search for a better future by overcoming sadness. By discovering her extremely strong fantasy, Renate learns to understand herself better.

In an unconventional, tragic but at the same time humoristic way she undermines the well-established daily routine of the clinic.

Four months later Renate is able to leave the clinic as a positively changed young woman. However, her new self has not settled down yet. She flees into a sanctuary. There she is confronted not only with the question of who she used to be but also of who she could be now.

This uncompromisingly honest life story is also meant to encourage people to overcome their burnout and their depressions by seeking help in a psychosomatic clinic. To get an impression of the healing fairy tale click on the dragonvideo link below: Here comes the English Fulna Video

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And now? Do I feel lonely? Have I succeeded in writing a book that can help me and others? I say yes and as I can only speak on my behalf it is up to everyone else to decide for him- or herself. If this novel has only encouraged one person to find his own path it has been worth all the struggle of writing it.

In some situations in my life I feel more lonely than ever before. That is because I  came to realize that- I can only  write a healing fairy tale for myself. What I can’t do is to write a healing fairy tale that will change my family.

The banner with the inscription “she had a happy childhood”, that was often held up to the outside world won’t “fly” anymore after my disclosure of the family’s “taboo”. But even during my “coming out” as victim of sexual abuse I still wanted to belong to that family. There was even the wishful thinking that –as I was constantly told during my childhood- I was wrong in my feelings and my perception. That I was simply “too sensitive” and “too easily hurt”.

Besides all the hurt there have been always beautiful moments-even after my stay in the psychosomatic clinic. However, all these good memories  along  with all the support I got from my family for my education won’t eliminate the insights I gained during therapy. One insights is, that in all those years, I kind of gobbled up the “breadcrums” of affection and attention without asking who was throwing them nor questioning their motives.

And here comes the main point I want to bring across with my autobiographical novel: This book is not a mere discussion of sexual abuse. It isn’t a “pure” fairy tale either nor is it “only an autobiography”. What I want to point out is: As important it was for me to go through the memories of sexual abuse in order to finally let go, my family doesn’t play the role in my life that it used to be. And here is what I learned: I learned that my true “Self” is something different from  fulfilling the expectations of others. And what is even more important: I learned that –regardless of which path I choose in life-I am a valuable human being –that needs to be respected by myself and by others.

When I look at my family, I can decide (each time) to leave the old behavior patterns of codependence, unfulfilled need and overstepping my boundaries behind to find my own life. On my way I encounter mates: friends for a few miles along the path, friends to talk to and eventually friends for a whole lifetime. Good luck on your journey! Have a safe trip!

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